Inspired

So I could say these days of my life has been pretty crappy. I get it when some people's lives has its ups and downs, and so far for the past month its been down mostly. I don't usually have down days as much as this but I'm going through paranoia stuff happening and I know it shouldn't be that big of a deal but I really don't want to deal with this kind of stuff right now. I kind of always plan to avoid it, but I'm glad to get great advice from friends that are there for me. I learned to realize that life happens. People go through tougher times than anything I've ever dealt with and their able to make the best of their lives so why not me? I'd like to acknowledge one of Joanna Yan's quotes on her blog that I still believe to be true, "New things begin and old things end. But there will always be someone there for you, for you to vent to, for you to have an adventure with. You have to keep moving forward though, things fall apart so better things can fall in place."-Joanna Yan. So this sunday I went to church wearing sweat pants with my eyes half closed and half awaked. My parents like taking the 7 am church time and I'm always sleepy in there. But this sunday it was surprisingly interesting, they had a blind 22 year old girl and a blind 12 year old boy preform for us. The girl was singing and the boy played the piano and everybody in the church became tearful. I held back my tears but it did touch me, throughout the whole time in church I kept thinking about my problems, being selfish and not praying for others around me that could be going through worser things. I thought, "if these two kids can beat the odds and learn to sing and play the piano when their blind, I have the advantage that I'm not taking. I have good health, a good life, and a great family, what's there to complain about? I thought the most I can do is confront this person thats been the cause of my problems, and give the other one some space he might need, even though I really want to be friends with him, I've got to learn to let go. Also I recommand reading Angela's Ashes, the book has great closure through Frank McCourt's sad childhood. The hardship of a drunk father, poor mother, 3 other children to care for, and his dream to go to America.

In honor of Frank McCourt

To start off this blog my day was very tiring, I woke up very tired, I came to school half asleep, and when I got home I just couldn't wait to take a nap. When we played basketball in the gym for points, I made 4 3pointer shots, I was pretty happy with what I got and our team won twice. So after my nap I went to the library to volunteer, I started reading Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt and the librarian came up to me and tells me 'did you know he just died?' I was so shocked, he died this monday, the day I checked the book out...

Big coincidence, and I felt very bad, reading about how his childhood was and to just find out he just died made me feel so bad when I was reading his book. (For all of you readers who had Ms. Whitmore, you should know what book I'm talking about.) So Angela's Ashes is a autobiography of Frank's tragic childhood in Ireland and after reading just the first 30 pages of it, I was captivated by the book's use of grammer and interesting facts. Like the way he wrote the book sounds as if a professional child is telling you his story, not as if an adult was. And how his mother was born between New Year's eve and New Years, on new year's eve the head came out and then at the strike of midnight on New Years day, so did the rest of the body, so they didn't know exactly which day her birthday was. I found that fact very interesting and humerous. He died July 19th 2009 of Melanoma. Melanoma is a malignant tumor of melanocytes which are found predominantly in skin but also in the bowel and eye. Malignant melanoma is a serious type of skin cancer. It is due to uncontrolled growth of pigment cells, called melanocytes. I'm glad he got to live to 79 before he died and I hope he rests in peace.

2nd Semester of Spanish

So today was the first day of the second semester of spanish in the summer of 2009. I was surprised to see a lot of new kids in our class and especially a lot of cute guys! I'm not emotionally available for a relationship but its such bad timing that these cute guys decide to take spanish 2. So my teacher was repeating the rules for summer school to the new kids and since I was returning student I didn't have to listen, instead I picked my nails. And I don't know how it happened but one of that nail flings on Tabina's folder and the expression on her face was could make me laugh on and on for hours, she had a combination of a grossed out look with a 'what the heck is this?' look. Jenny looks over and so did Joanna they both didn't know why it was there. I look over and asked what they were all staring at. Tabina pointed to a fingernail on her folder and was grossed out by it. I laughed so hard but I tried to make it silent because I didn't want to attract attention. I told them I think its mine because I was picking my nails, its sort of a habit of mine, better than bitting nails, I just find that plain gross because you don't want to taste where your fingers have been.
So today at tennis, a certain person kinda got on my nerves but I didn't give much care towards it till I found out that same person gotten on my friends nerves too. It made me really curious to find out what's wrong with them, but I decided to just leave it alone. But other than the bad parts I'm looking forward to the new semester and my birthday!

My sunday 7/19/2009

I'm gonna try my best to make this short, so sundays I usually go to church then get home and watch marathons of either Beauty and the Geek or ANTM (America's Next Top Model). Instead we decided to stop by the mall in the afternoon, we ate at some noodle place. My famliy and I started talking about me getting a summer job, they don't like the idea but are OK with it, I told them how I wanted to work at Century 16, my mom tells me that their gonna make me clean bathrooms, I tell her that almost every teen job makes you clean bathrooms, she disagrees and says the most racist thing I've ever heard her say, she says "Thats what mexicans are for!" Haha well asian parents are pretty closed minded. So later that day we walked around the mall and I saw a group of friends dressed in Naruto costumes, I thought it was interesting, not something you see every day unless your near an anime convention. I took out my phone and tried to take a picture of it but I think they saw me so I started running. The picture above is my attempt of a picture of them. Hope you like it, although you can't really see much.

Tennis Incident

So this did happen awhile ago in the summer of 2009, but what happened was, me and my friend Joanna wanted to play tennis on this excrutiating hot day. She mentioned how mt.tabor's tennis courts were cool and had shade so we decided to go there after summer school. When we got there two old men in there 60s were there and asked if we wanted to play with them. We told them we were kinda bad and walked away. It was fine at first just playing but when we took a rest, one of the guys came over to refill his waterbottle and asked where we're from. I didn't have a problem so I just answered him, Joanna obviously did. My bad for answering for her, I just thought it might be rude to leave him hanging, the question didn't really offend me of some sort. Later when they decided to leave they rode their bikes to the exit but for some reason they chose the exit close to us? And when they were about to leave one of them picked up our ball and kept it and came over to us and asked our age. I was like uhhhhh...15? Joanna told me she wanted to ask how old he was but later he drove away. He stopped after he exited and was behind the fence, Joanna didn't notice but I was wondering why he stopped, did his bike get caught on something? When I looked over he took a picture of me and her on a DSLR or a SLR camera. I quickly turned my face away and when I stared up at Joanna she had her back to him, I thought she knew what he was doing beforehand. I wanted to act natural and not question him but I didn't want to be in the picture. Why the hell is some old guy taking a picture of a couple of girls he just met? Because he's a freaking creepy pedofile! I tell Joanna what happened and she freaked out over it. She told me she thinks she overheard them saying that their goal today was to play tennis with a girl. How creepy is that? We aren't planning to go back there anytime soon, and we sure hope his camera gets dropped on the way home or ran over by a car or something! I feel violated and disgusted!

Going to 24hour fitness w/ Joanna

I liked my day pretty much, this morning I was very lazy and watched T.V for awhlie. Afterwards I had to get dressed to volunteer at the library for the summer reading program. My partner and I pretty much played cards throughout the whole time, near the end some lady with her son who looks like he's in his 20s come in and ask to exchange coupons because they didn't know that the 'free rental at hollywood' only meant for old movies. I would've gladly taken it back and exchanged it, no harm done. But then the library assistant walks over and asks for the son's name to check on the computer if he really is part of the program (for all you guys that don't know, when working in the library summer reading program, your name has to be entered into a system for us to know that you are active on the game). The mother felt offended by the question like she thought we were accusing him of cheating or stealing, the library assistant assured that we just have to ask as a pre-caution, and they went on arguing till the mom came to me and yelled "are you gonna exchange the damn coupon or not?" I didn't know what to say, I would've done it but I knew i wasn't allowed. The library assitant went over to get her supervisor and the mother and the son left cussing. It was awkward and everybody was staring at me and my partner. After that, me and Joanna went and worked out at 24 hour fitness. It was great having a friend there and she did great on the machines. It was hilarious when I was showing her a couple yoga moves, when she would do them, it made her look like a zombie. We saw grandmas and granpas lifting weights heavier than we could lift, we felt ashamed. When we left some mexican guy opened his window and looked at me and Joanna on the car ride home. He smiled and winked at me and I felt disgusted, and creeped out. It was like the tennis incident all over again, which reminds me if you feel at all interested check out another blog about the tennis incident. So back to where I was, I turned to Joanna and smiled and told her to say something, I wanted to act natural but avoid looking at him or letting him look at my face. I hate it when random old adult people just check you out. And that's pretty much my day, I don't feel sore but I know I'll soon feel that in the morning.

Let the embarassment begin!

So I recently posted videos of myself on youtube, I'm normally a shy person but I felt it would just be for laughs when I post them up. I recently posted a video of me dancing to Michael Jackson's songs, silly right? Well the best way to laugh is to laugh at yourself and I made an attempt to recreat his old legendary moves such as the moonwalk, the thriller dance, the crotch grabbing trick, but all attempts failed in my video. The moonwalk wasn't even in it because I lost the footage somehow but you wouldn't have wanted to watch it anyways, I tripped and fell over my laundry baskets when doing it. I'm a little worried about what people will say but I'm glad people are admiring me for my courage to post something as embarassing as that up on youtube. I plan to make more silly videos like that later in the future if the embarassment doesn't get enough out of me. People have been asking me, "was it supposed to be funny?" And my response is, in a way it was but as a way to show I really do respect Michael Jackson too throughout the crimes he was charged or the bad publicity, there was no doubt in his talent and skill. Youtube is for, posting videos of what you're good at, and wanting to be admired for their comedic sense, ability and talent, through different peers. I honestly don't find myself with any talent, my singing skills aren't that great, obviously I can't dance to save my life, I'm not that funny to people period, so I figured I do make a fool out of myself easily, maybe thats my talent. Fear is the thing holding us back from what we want. Lets take a chance and do it while we're young!