I'm on a boat!

Today was so exciting that I had to talk about it so memories. Today I had a tennis tournament, got there around 9 and played against Khang, Jenny and Tri. Khang 6-7 tiebreaker 6-8, Jenny 6-2, and Tri 6-7 tiebreaker 1-7. I'm always so close but its never enough to win it all. Kinda sucks but I'll work on that. Epic battle with Shane and Jing. Afterwards Shane took me on his parent's boat and its fun and nice, it was the first time I have ever been on a boat so it was exciting Shane was so pro at what is it called? Water boarding? I don't know but I tried water skiing and it was fun but got me sore I think. Fell off like 6-7 times really fast, I stayed up for only a little bit then lost balance easily. Fun experience and then went swimming in the river for a bit with him, he was freezing his ass off haha. I love hanging out with him. Afterwards sped back to the dock on the boat and stopped at McDonalds once they took the boat on the truck. Fun day! But then again I always have fun with him anyways =)

Real talk

"You think you're not pretty. There's always someone uglier. You want more money. People are in poverty. You want a boyfriend. Someone doesn't even have parents. You're hungry. A child is starving. You want to go to the mall. Someone is looking for anything they can wear just to stay warm. You're chilly. Others are frozen. You just want to die. Most people want to live. So don't waste your time on things that you think you want because there is always someone out there who needs it much more than you could possibly know."

The most negative post you'll ever find me writing

For once in my life, this song really applies to how I feel right now. I've climbed too high just to fall even greater. I just really wanted this AP score to feel like as though I'm not as academically smart as those people in my school, I'm still determined, that I was worth something after all. But now, seeing that even trying at my best, it still wasn't enough I don't know what I'm good at. I don't have any skill/talent or anything. I thought I could handle everything, I thought if I was determined I could do it all, but I can't. I just feel like, I'm not doing this planet any good use, and being a waste of carbon dioxide. I feel like I am comparing myself to a lot of people, because I'm trying to live up to there standards. I'm surrounded by successful people and its hard to realize and accept that I just don't belong with them. I've always mostly think optimistically about everything, I can see that I am an optimistic person but, reality hit me hard. I'm a dreamer, and I've been out of touch with reality. It took me too long to realize that I couldn't handle and balance everything. As much as I wanted too, I couldn't handle and focus on everything to be at my best. What hope is there for accomplishment when your best isn't even enough?

Summer Hair = Forever Young

I just wanted to include the song title because the word 'summer' is in it and guess what? Its finally summer! :) Too bad the weather isn't cooperating. Hate Portland weather. There isn't much going on with me right now besides him. I'd like to dedicate this special blog to someone that has been pulling me up when I fall down, that has been making me feel special and worthwhile. And I know it annoys you to think of this but I honestly do believe you're a great guy and one day will realize that you're worth more and deserve better than me. I've never met a sweet guy like you before and for that I'm the luckiest girl in the world. These are the moments that that are worthwhile and I want to remember them for the rest of my life no matter what happens to us:

Me: hahaa did your parents teach you to be sweet or were you just born that way

Him: nope, you made me that way

Me: your the only one im talking to at the moment
Him: guess im special
Me: or your the only one responding to me
Me: hahaa
Me: everybody else is away
Me: jk you are special though
Him: You scared them all away
Me: -__- wow i take that special back now
Me: why havent i scared you then
Him: you my special scary girl
Him: i told you horrors dont scare me
Him: lol jk

Him: thats suppose to be my line lol
Me: whats your line?
Him: no =] i like talking to you
Him: that one
Me: well i added the smiley face so it makes it better
Me: plus i cant argue with that, the feeling is mutual
Him: but u did argue thats yours was better lol
Me: well it is better just cause it came from me too
Me: cause im better lol
Him: than who, me?
Me: yup!
Him: prove it
Me: im better than you at balloono
Me: and burns
Him: no
Me: and smiley faces
Him: i cant say that
Me: and draw my thing
Me: and balloono
Him: idk im better now
Him: jk I haven't played
Me: and typing
Him: well u cheat and use spell check
Me: hahaha wowwww
Me: i do not lol
Me: i dont even have spell check
Him: its auto on
Me: no its not lol
Him: right...
Me: i make mistakes too
Me: just not as much as you lol
Him: i just dont care to fix it lol
Him: that involves more work
Me: sureeeeee
Me: and i look better
Him: thats the one part you win on
(Gosh that so sweet ! )

Me: trust me i can handle staying up late lol i've pulled all-nighters for school before
Me: but i dont want to put you through it lol
Him: too bad
Him: I like chatting with you too much
Him: so its not your decision lol

(we were trying to decide which theater to go to, lloyd outside or lloyd inside to see iron man 2)
Me: Which theater dude? they both suck and have low seats!
Him: Well grow!
Me: I can't I'm asian
Him: Then sit one someone's lap!
Me: -____-
Him: Okay, which one has the lower seats?
Me: idk both of them?
Him: nah your supposed to tell me one of them so I can pick the lower seat theater.
Me: Why? so I wont be able to see the screen?!
Him: So you can sit on my lap.

Him: Don't be too cocky :p
Me: I'd rather be cocky than pessimistic
Him: Well, be optimistic but also realistic
Me: Its rare for optimistic and realistic to fall into the same category sometimes...
Him: Well you can always be -istic. So you have to choose your own prefix.

“Is it an accomplishment to be liked by them?” - S.

You have to make your own opinions of people otherwise you will miss out on some good people.

— S

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(whatever peeps go and read and laugh if you want or think I'm being obsessive or something, but these are the moments I cherish so I just want to create memories and remember them.)