New School Year

So the school year is about to start and I'm already a junior, no one ever told us that high school speeds by this fast. Next year we'll all be seniors, then when college comes, we'll forget our friends, all the stuff we learned probably, and everything just moves forward. I think that I'm still on pause, I honestly don't know what to do when college ends, I don't know what I wanna be for my profession. I have no passion for anything right now, no talent, no set-on goal. I'm just sitting back and seeing everybody doing what they love. I'm not even sure what college I wanna go to. When I think about it, I'm not sure if there is a career I would enjoy doing for the rest of my life. This year I just wanna make one goal to myself. I want to stop caring what people say or do. I want to stop thinking about those things and getting involved, I'm wanna focus on my problems, study, and find out about myself these last two years of high school. I did say I want to, not that I will, when people say they will and they don't do it, it just looks silly to me, I want to say that I plan to work on it. Forget about boys and gossip for a couple of years and just focus on setting out my future first. So if these last two years came by this fast, I sure hope it slows down a bit these last two years of high school.

Fmylife

Thought it was an interesting fml statement, just had to share it :)
"Today I woke up and its my birthday, my wife didnt say anything, just left a note at home telling me she took the kids, I checked the answering machine to see if any of my relatives left me a birthday greeting, turns out my mom asked me if I could run some errands for her only. I went to work and people just pasted me by without saying anything, I felt forgotten. While I was working my secretary came in and told me happy birthday, she was the only one that remembered, she said it was a nice day and that we should take a walk in the park. So we did, and thats when she asked me to go back with her to her apartment, she said she had a birthday present for me. I came by and she gave me some champagne, she told me to sit at the bed and wait for her. I wasn's sure if I should go through with it, I could tell something was up. Then all of a sudden I hear a big happy birthday and my whole family was there, my wife, my kids, my parents and all the workers, and the boss. My secretary said surprise! And they all stared at me, there I was naked in bed. fml."

Tennis Incident the SECOND time

So one day me and Joanna decided to play tennis together, John was supposed to come but he came late. And it was at mt.Tabors where the courts we're filled, we waited until someone gave up their courts for us. We saw the old man that took a picture of us last time and we just steer away from eye contact. A couple told us they were finishing up so we could have their court in about 15 minutes. Afterwards the old man stopped playing and told us to come to their courts, we took our time coming there, hoping they'll leave by the time we get there. When we do that old man still sat on the bench and didn't leave, all this teammates and the other people that accompanied him already left and took their bikes but him. Joanna tried to call John to see if he was coming and I just stood next to her, the old man started walking towards us. Inside my stomach, it ached, I thought to myself 'did he recognize us from last time, and is he walking up to start a conversation with us again?' He came up and had a big old grin on his face, he wore glasses and was very tall for an old man, he looked more in his 60-70s. He asked us what time it was and I told him I didn't know, he then kept asking, "well doesn't she have it on her phone?"(Joanna) I answered "yeah, but she's talking on the phone, it would be rude." Then he asked me, what time did you get here then, and I told him, we waited for awhile so I lost track of time now. Then he exited away and we were relieved. The other day we played tennis and the penis game with Mike and Jenny this time, everytime you hit the ball you have to say penis and it gets louder the more the ball is hit. It was funny when people started staring at us but it changed things up in tennis and made it less boring than usual.

Angela's Ashes Chapter 8 section

(If you don't know, Frank McCourt has been diagnosed with Typhoid Fever and is sent to the hospital, very funny scene in the hospitcal I thought I'd like to share.)
"I fall asleep. Mam is gone when I wake but there's movement in the room and it's the priest, Father Gorey, from the Confraternity saying Mass at the table in the corner. I drift off again and now they're waking me up and pulling down the bedclothes. Father Gorey is touching me with oil and praying in Latin. I know it's Extreme Unction and that means I'm going to die and I don't care. They wake me again to recieve Communion. I don't want it, I'm afraid I might get sick. I keep the wafer on my tongue and fall asleep and when I wake up again it's gone.

I'ts dark and Dr. Campbell is sitting by my bed. He's holding my wrist and looking at his watch. He has red hair and glasses and he always smiles when he talks to me. He sits now and hums and looks out the window. His eyes close and he snores a little. He tilts over on the chair and farts and smiles to himself and I know now I'm going to get better because doctors would never fart in the presence of a dying boy." -Frank McCourt

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Angela's Ashes Chapter 7 section

"I'm nine years old and I have a pal, Mickey Spellacy, whose relations are dropping one by one of the galloping consumption. I envy Mickey because every time someone dies in his family he gets a week off from school and his mother stitches a black diamond patch on his sleeve so that he can wander from lane to lane and street to street and people will know he has the grief and pat his head and give him money and sweets for his sorrow.
But this summer Mickey is worried. His sister, Brenda, is wasting away with the consumption and it's only August and if she dies before September he won't get his week off from school because you can't get a week off from school when there's no school. He comes to Billy Campbell and me to ask if we'll go around the corner to St. Joseph's Church and pray for Brenda to hang on till September.
What's in it for us, Mickey, if we go around the corner praying?
Well, if Brenda hangs on and I get me week off ye can come to the wake and have ham and cheese and cake and sherry and lemonade and everything and ye can listen to the songs and stories all night.
Who could say no to that? There's nothing like a wake for having a good time. We trot around the church where they have statues of St. Joseph himself as well as the Sacred Heart of Jesus, the Virgin Mary and St. Therese of Lisieux, the Little Flower. I pray to the Little Flower because she died of the consumption herself and she'd understand.
One of our prayers must have been powerful because Brenda stays alive and doesn't die till the second day of school. We tell Mickey we're sorry for his troubles but he's delighted with his week off and he gets the black diamond patch which will bring the money and sweets.
My mouth is watering at the thought of the feast at Brenda's wake. Billy knocks on the door and there's Mickey's aunt. Well?
We came to say a prayer for Brenda and Mickey said we could come to the wake.
She yells, Mickey!
What?
Come here. Did you tell this gang they could come to your sister's wake?
No.
But, Mickey, you promised...
She slams the door in our faces. We don't know what to do till Billy Campbell says, We'll go back to St. Joseph's and pray that from now on everyone in Mickey Spellacy's family will die in the middle of the summer and he'll never get a day off from school for the rest of his life.
One of our prayers is surely powerful because next summer Mickey himself is carried off by the galloping consumption and he doesn't get a day off from school and that will surely teach him a lesson." -Frank McCourt


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+ to the candles

I'd like to thank everybody who wished me a happy birthday. if there are reasons when you couldn't make it, I should've understood and be cool with it. The fact that you remembered should've been enough for me. I thought that I was never gonna be like those girls on sweet sixteen acting all spoiled just for their birthday because its the biggest birthday a teen could have. But I was on the borderline of that. And I am gratefully sorry. I should've understood. I guess over the years I stopped celebrating it but when I finally did this year. I wanted not a repeat of my 13th birthday. I wanted everything to be perfect. For everybody to have fun and like it. But I should've been considerate and understanding of what people had to do. My birthday isn't the most important thing in the world that they had to attend. Therefore I'm honestly sorry. Now I hope my 17th isn't a repeat of my 16th. haha, it'll be better!

Sixteen Candles

So today is my birthday, I'm finally turning the infamous 'sweet sixteen'. Yesterday I planned to have a little get together with friends at Denny's and most of my good friends came but the others had a tennis match, couldn't blame them but I really wanted them to come. I think I'm gonna bring the leftover cupcakes to tennis practice for the people who missed out that day. Anyways, the thing that got me pissed was, people decideding not to show up because their friends weren't there, and I really wanted them to come and get a free cup and just having them there for me would make me more happy than any present. I had a great time and the bestest present I got was from everybody just saying happy birthday because the fact that they remember and care enough to say it to me just makes me feel special and it makes me know that they do care. So Alysha, Nicole, Alexis, Erica, Jennifer, Wilson, Jenny, Joanna, Sandra, Janine and Emily all made it to my birthday party at Denny's and we had a fun time eating and then Vanny shows up with my gift, I love her so much just for coming and everybody coming. I love Joanna, Jenny, Wilson, Tabina and Mike for getting me this extrodinary gift, because usually people get you nice things. But that jacket was something I really wanted and knowing that they care to get me a gift I'd love is the best. I love Erica and Piaoling for that dress, it was so cute and I told them already that they didn't have to get me anything. I'm so happy for Tabina coming with me in the morning to drop off the cupcakes, I know it sucks she coudln't come but I know she wished me a happy birthday already and thats good enough. And thanks to everybody else for remembering. I don't usually like celebrating my birthday but this year, Nicole and Alysha convinced me to do it anyways. Nicole and Alysha came with me home and we had a slumber party, they got me a necklace of 1/3 of a heart that says 'friends' on it. Nicole kept the 'best' and Alysha kept the 'forever'. I had such a fun time and I thank everyone that wished me a happy birthday.