New School Year

So the school year is about to start and I'm already a junior, no one ever told us that high school speeds by this fast. Next year we'll all be seniors, then when college comes, we'll forget our friends, all the stuff we learned probably, and everything just moves forward. I think that I'm still on pause, I honestly don't know what to do when college ends, I don't know what I wanna be for my profession. I have no passion for anything right now, no talent, no set-on goal. I'm just sitting back and seeing everybody doing what they love. I'm not even sure what college I wanna go to. When I think about it, I'm not sure if there is a career I would enjoy doing for the rest of my life. This year I just wanna make one goal to myself. I want to stop caring what people say or do. I want to stop thinking about those things and getting involved, I'm wanna focus on my problems, study, and find out about myself these last two years of high school. I did say I want to, not that I will, when people say they will and they don't do it, it just looks silly to me, I want to say that I plan to work on it. Forget about boys and gossip for a couple of years and just focus on setting out my future first. So if these last two years came by this fast, I sure hope it slows down a bit these last two years of high school.