I've learned

I've learned that I'm never gonna have more high expectations, I'm never gonna expect anything anymore because they keep leading me to disappointment. And I'm sick and tired of getting hurt, crying, feeling unable to move, to do anything. I need to start building a wall, and have low expectations, No more cute things to try to make everything better, no more. I've wasted my effort and energy. It's slowly killing me, I'm not strong enough to handle disappointment, so shouldn't the best thing to do is start avoiding it, shutting down my emotions. I'm gonna try to change, I feel like best will never be enough, I'm done.